Reflection

When I first thought about blogging today, I decided that I was going to blog about my extremely disappointing weekend: my concert got cancelled, the movie I was looking forward to did nothing for me, my Cougars got slaughtered, I am exhausted, I feel kind of sick, the list goes on. But then I decided to create a new playlist for the blog and was going to add some of my favorite Backstreet Boys songs in memory of my cancelled concert. Upon searching through their songs I found quite a few that I had never heard before. All the songs added but the first song you are hearing now are songs that are new to me...and I sort of like them. But then I came across the song "Close My Eyes" and knew my post was going to take a drastic turn...to a quiet reflection inside my heart.
I truly believe the Backstreet Boys are amazing, and a lot of what I like about them is the fact that I can relate to many of their songs. This new song {Close My Eyes} is no exception. In fact, I think it's my new theme song for my life at present. It is very closely related to the song "You Can Let Go" which is playing now. The first time I heard that song I fell in love with it. Then one Sunday when I was driving to my parents' house after church I had a strange thought enter into my mind when that song came on. I pictured my Heavenly Father singing the words to me. Kind of crazy, I know. But it immediately brought tears to my eyes and sometimes when I am sad I think the same thing and turn on that song.

It's no big surprise that I am not perfect. I have made many mistakes in my life, and more the last 5 years or so. This last week has been eye opening for me. I am finally waking up. I feel like I can finally let go of a lot of baggage that has been weighing me down lately. I still feel strange and emotional, but at the same time feel invigorated and a little bit lighter. It's a strangely pleasant feeling.

So enjoy my new playlist. Give these new songs a listen and let me know what you think. Is one of them your new theme song??

P.S. There is one highlight of my weekend: my big Enrichment activity is OVER and was a success! Woo hoo!!

UPDATE 11/24: I gather from the two comments I received thus far that my blog was taken out of context. No, I am not depressed. No, this blog was in no way meant to make you feel sorry for me or to let you in on a suicide attempt. I am totally fine! I just found a new song that makes me happy...and sums up my life. So please understand, I am a happy girl!!! I know I have amazing friends that love me. What more could a girl ask for??!!